hello again. ive had a great after-birthday! lol.

well the day after i was going to get a bunch of kids to go with me to the circus, but i only ended up with crawford, katy and della. it was still fun though. we went to el phoenix first, then we were just a little late but thats okay. some of the things they had in the circus was amazing! and they had really pretty horses and tigers and elephants etc. i had fun.. but i tried not to leave anybody out. crawford had to leave after that (due to his gender) and then katy della and i went back to my house. we rented the movies elephant(about a school shooting), empire records(one of my new fav's), and peter pan. we stayed up /all/ night watching them, but never finished peter pan because in the middle of the night we spent like an hour looking for food, and when we finally found some soup in the pantry we couldnt find a can opener! ugh.. so we looked a little harder and found a can of tomato soup with an easy open top. and it was good. i felt really damn bad the next day though. too much junk food. but we still had fun female bonding time. heh

the next day we took everyone home, and i felt like i had a fuckin hangover so i went to craford's to smoke. and i actually dont remember anything else that happened that day. hm.

sunday i got up early to go to church. i dressed up real pretty and church was kinda boring but thats okay. we went to quizno's for lunch then went back to crawfords to drop him off because we were all tired.

oh btw, my mom has been in colorado with my sister all week.. and she just got back actually, but all this time my dad was hauling me around. poor guy.

anyway, we took some pics of me looking nice, then i took a long nap then went to this steak place to celebrate my grandma's bday. it was okay.

so like, yesterday my mom came back. not until night though. i slept for a while then had to get up for /volleyball/ practice. already! it seems like summer just FLEW by. schools almost starting.. anyway.. yeah it was cool katy is playing and some new girls. the old coach from last year is too though. ugh. oh well. so after practice i was talking to crawford on the phone because i was planning on going to his house, because katy was gonna take me. and dusty over heard me talking and asked to talk to him. and then he decided togo over there to catch up with him and stuff, so i got a ride with him. we got there, smoked.. then he had to leave so he left. julian came over too. and i actually left my cell in dusty's car but that didnt really matter. julian and crawford wanted to go to this place out real far to get a slider for crawf's bong. so we drove out to the middle of fucking nowhere to find out that the place was closed! and for some reason, i was being really moody and weird. so i took an antidepressant julian gave me and i was happier, but still a little moody. and since i was stoned i kinda said some mean things without thinking that hurt crawford, and i felt like a lower-than-shit bitch the rest of the time for it. but being the sweet sweet guy he is of corse he forgave me. i still felt bad though. so then we went back to his house, julian went to get kat and her friend emmy. while he was gone me and crawford had some alone time, and ate some pizza, and i calmed down a little. then when julian came back over with the girls i had a joint and we just hung out. it was pretty cool. then i came home to see mommy. yay! she had some presents for me. but it wasnt until the next day when i got my REAL present.

TODAY, i went to best buy and bought only the COOLEST fucking cell phone ever. and a new ddr pad, and ddrmax 2 to go with it. i am so happy! then i went to practicewith katy, after that my dad took us to kellers, and then we went home and her mom picked her up.

too bad i didnt get to see my crawffy today :\ but there's always tomarrow...

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