well this is my last week before i go to sky ranch. i dont really want to go.. but oh well. i'm hoping crawford can sign up for the 4th week in time.

the other day i went to his house and i smoked a little weed.. not really enoght to get my high though just a little buzz. i hope my parents dont drug test me

and then we went to speed zone and i won some things.. it was pretty fun. we went back to his house after that.. it was kinda boring but whatever. i was moody and shit. and i was moody yesterday too. yesterday i went shopping with my mom looking for a swimsuit and had no luck. later crawford came over and we went to nickel mania.. he was high.. heh. he had just bought some new weed and his car reaked of it. nickel mania was boring too.. and so was my house afterwards. i was in a weird mood. i should have taken my medicine.

but todaaaaay i went to the dr and he's gonna change my antidepressant. i'm frusterated though because he's been trying this trazodone to help with my insomnia, and it doesnt work and he still refuses to prescribe me to a hypnotic... because they're addictive.. ugh. i want it though

then my mom and i went shopping again and still couldnt find anything so i got something to eat and then drove with steve and thats it k bye

Last Five
miracles do happen - 2005-03-02
valentines day, colorado - 2005-02-22
superbowl, bad week - 2005-02-10
relapsed - 2005-01-25
started counselling - 2005-01-18