ok so florida was like.. pretty cool. i was pretty much pmsing the whole time. i would be hyper and happy and then all the sudden the seretonin level went way down and i took things too personally and separated myself.

the first day i got up early to fly and we went to epcott, where i hung out with della and went to all the countries, and hung out with murphy and jason and andy and saw pretty fireworks. i was the most hyper at the end of the night. didnt really get depressed that day though, although the beginning was kinda boring.

second day we went to sea world and i hung out with jp, charlie and lee, and we rode the roller coaster a lot and it was awesome, and saw shamoo and got soaked with freezing salt water. by the time we had to meet up again we were pretty bored though. we learned about like, manatees and then we were set free again. this time charlie and jp decided to go off by themselves, which kinda hurt my feelings. i felt kinda down after that, but i was mostly missing crawford. but after that i hung out with della and jason and murphy, and we rode the roller coaster a couple times, and one of the times i flipped off the camera and jason flashed it. it was funny. after that we were just lazy and sat around and talked. it was fun though. after that we went to eat dinner and i was kinda depressed.

the next day we went to kennedy space center. it was boring. and i was reeeally moody and got reeeally depressed at one point. i sat alone for a while and people didnt know what the fuck was wrong, so they left me alone and because they left me alone i felt like they didnt care therefore i felt worse. so it was all really confusing. after a while i started talking to them again though. and that night we went to this thing called safari todd, where there was a lot of animals and stuff and this guy was bringing them out and telling us about them, and i got to hold a spider, alligator, snake, skunk, scorpion, and there was a very endangered florida panther there that i got to pet and get my picture taken with. it was special. i enjoyed that place.

the next day we went to magic kingdom and rode rides and stuff. it wasnt all that great. i was kinda left behind by my friends, i got down about it although i dont think it was on purpose. i hung out with andy and lee at animal kingdom though. andy was being really nice to me. by the end of the day i was really hyper with della.

last day we went to tampa to this place where we went out to the ocean and cought sea critters and crap. and we disected a shark. fun fun. and on the plane ride back della and jason got in trouble for looking at a bad magazine with half naked girls. lol.

anyway um so i had a fun trip. i stole a LOT of crap. i was suprised with how much i got away with stealing. i didnt like our tour guide, and ms orahood got annoying but ms skeeters wasnt all that bad. i took a lot of pictures. i may upload some. i missed crawford ALOT. sigh..

well today was okay, had another soft ball game and got to play more today. before the game crawford came out to the park, he was feeling kinda depressed today and we had some serious talks, he said a lot of sweet things and we made out some but i still felt bad because he just wasnt happy. it was 420 today and he couldnt get high. so that sucks. hes also disappointed that i wont have sex with him. but he said that he didnt care, he loves me too much to not go out with me for that, which is really sweet and makes me feel good.

after the game we went to some sports bar with him and my dad, and we played pool. it was pretty fun. nothing special though. im glad to spend time with him. always.

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