boy oh boy did this week go by fast. i'm done with drivers ed now (except for my 2 make-up classes) and its the weekend. and.. i'm ... bored. heh. maybe i'll clean my room tomarrow

um god i was really bummed this week cause i cant go out to lunch cause i failed ONE class with like a 69. ugh.. oh well i guess it helps my diet cause i dont eat unless i go out.

ive been getting really irritable lately.. like after drivers ed i'll be all annoyed with the girls, and ill get in the car and im grumpy and it goes downhill and i get depressed. kinda like before. i think its cause my mom got my meds off schedule or something.. but i cried last night for no reason. im not really complaining though.. i like to cry, its refreshing. but anyway, iwas being a bitch to my parents.. my mom said its the internet that makes me like that, because when im on the net i get all zoned out and wont talk to them, and she thinks its cause im depressed. /shrug. but when she said that i got so mad and walked out on her, ive never done that before but suprisingly she lightened up and i didnt get in trouble. i think probably because she realized she was wrong. or she talked to my dad. my dad is ususally on my side..

i cant wait till my sister goes back to college. GOD, i'll be on the computer and she can just come up whenever she likes and kick me off and i cant do anything about it cause my parents let her. but when shes on and i wanna get on i cant because im on more than she is. which is really gay and ive been so frusterated lately. but yesterday, it was about 10 and i had just gotten back from drivers ed(we got home late b/c my dad went to this hockey place to see some guy's parents who are friends of my mom >_>)and sarah came up as usual and was all 'ok my turn. get off' and im like no i just got on and she started throwing a fit.. so my dad came up and i'm like, oh great now i gotta get off. but what made me really happy was for once he actually stood up for me.. he told her to wait till i have to get off (which is 10:30, im not allowed on after that even though i stay on anyway) and she complained then went to her room and im like YES

ps i took my dog sophie for a walk today YAY FOR EXERCISE

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